Life & Grief

So this is a different kind of post to any I’ve done before, in all aspects. 

Last month I lost my Dad. 

He was a rock in my life and when I got that horrible phone call that he’d suffered a cardiac arrest, my world was shook beyond repair. 

Two weeks of sitting by his bedside, hoping he’d wake up, we got told that the damage caused by lack of oxygen to his brain had left him with no hope of waking up. So on the 14^th February, myself and the rest of the family that loved him, had to say goodbye.

 This was the most difficult thing I’ve ever had to go through and I still can’t believe he’s not here anymore.  

After a month of crying uncontrollably and not being able to think about much else, I am back at work and back to blogging. This is what my Dad would have wanted me to do. 

He loved the career that I’m chasing, I even helped him with his own website, and above all he loved my blogging. A fellow blogger himself, he would write about his novel writing and cycling, which he loved so much. He was the one who bought me my first professional camera for my blog, rather than struggling with my stupid iPhone. 

It’s so hard losing somebody that was such an intrinsic part of my life, but I have to look at the positives that have come from this. One for me and one for somebody else. 

For me, my Dad gave me the knowledge and years of advice needed to get me through the rest of my life. Everything that he’s taught me about life I will cherish forever. 

My Dad was an amazing man; he was intelligent, funny and also a registered Organ Donor. When he passed away, he may have left us all, but he gave somebody else the opportunity to live a full and happy life. How can I not feel immensely proud and happy for him for doing that?

I’ve now registered myself onto the list and if you haven’t but would like to, you can sign up here. I now understand first-hand how this positive gesture made me feel a little bit better about my Dad not being here anymore. 

It’s been a horrible month and it’s going to be a struggle for a long time, but I will make him proud beyond belief. I can only begin to thank the family and friends that have surrounded me throughout this time. I love you all so much.